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Life of lives

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So I am turning 21 which is just plain weird. I probably won't drink because usually when I do I get super depressed XDD
I have been working alot and even have my college classes. Which I really love my English professor :)
I found out that my Ex- Jade talks bad about me behind my back to random people ( one now being my coworker) xDD I guess I tried to blackmail her? Oh well I still wish her the best :)
As my love life goes XDD it doesn't but I'm ok with that. No need to cling on to just anyone when I can wait and find a girl worth being with forever.
Oh yeah I bought myself a little gift :) It is a Sonic SCREWDRIVER!!!!! 0_o And I insanely love it.
Been loving the new Doctor Who.
I'm finding a new place to live soon which will be interesting but hey its about time I get a move on in life.
I'm proud to say that I stand to my morals and values and hope people like me for it.
AWA is soon and I hope that it turns out well. Not sure if I'm cosplaying at all yet but we will see.
Well.. I wish everyone the best :)
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Fantastic :D

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Life has gotten better faster then I could imagine :D
I have a job!!! Making some good money :P and I am talking to someone that I think I click with better then anyone before :)
As for cosplay it has been going slow.
I will not be doing Craft Lawrence anymore due to the person who was my Horo decided to not communicate with me, so I move on to more fantastical fun :D
Like I have so many ideas for AWA!!!
I know I'm doing black butler and I'm hoping for DC Comics too :P
But I have all these other ideas and now have some money to work with.
I also applied at a Tech college and am working on getting a car with my money :)
Life is good everyone and I hope that you are all as happy as I am :D
I love you all <3
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Cosplay

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So far my cosplay work is going slow.
For Craft Lawrence I have the pants, shirt, and shoes.
I need a green vest, brown jacket, and coin holder.
For Black Butler I'm working on two
one Bardroy is almost done I believe and two is March Hare William T. Spears which I need his brown suit and vest.
For DC comics I have alot of work to do... Like I need to figure out who to be for sure and just stay on that track.
I'm looking for a job now and have begun to work on learning french as my hobby.
I'm excited for AWA and maybe if I have the money DragonCon :P
And even more exciting is applying for college and hoping to get out of Murphy by next spring.
Wish me luck people and if you have any ideas who I should cosplay do comment.
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Ranting -FML

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I can't understand how some people can want to be a part of your life and build you up like you are important and they couldn't live without you and when push comes to shove they don't want you. They don't make you even close of a priority at all and when the chance arrives that you might leave their lives. They don't do anything or they tell you goodbye so easily like there was never a feeling there at all.
That after moments of romance or moments of laughter and some of the biggest smiles... they don't care to want you enough anymore..
The people who said you were great and that they cared just dismiss you without a fight.
Or the moment when people tell you they love you and then later stab back at you that it was a lie brought on by guilt and it meant nothing to them.
How can love have fallen so much and people not care for the power of the word, they throw it around when called upon..
The moment they won't talk about any of your past because its a bad memory for them... The moment that every time you want to understand they just push you away more?
Does it matter that you make plans for fun dates or times when you can both do something that you know would bring so much happiness to you both?
Does it matter that you have common ground?
Will they even care when you are out of their life or was that a lie too?
When their kisses from the past turn to poison in your mind and the moments you were together must be filled with regret and shame...
The fact that they never wanted you back in their life and so easily throw you away.
Should there be a meaning to love anymore?
Or should I have to fear everyone that I try to let close to me?
Why I have to be hurt for so long when they heal right away...
Why they feel happy when I cry at night...
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Sometimes

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I just hurt myself.. like in my mind I make sure to suffer... I think I do it to try to kill my feelings.
I want to be someone I'm not and I can't please people like I wish I could.
I have my flaws and they are the only thing I can blame sometimes when others don't choose me or never respond.
When I never get the chance I want.
I can't force you to feel anything but the pain I feel and soon you'll be as dull to it now a I am.
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